An Apology

Yeah...

Me kinda sleeping this off spiraled many thoughts in my head; and I began to look towards the "bigger picture" of my problems in not only my pseudonym (whom you know as Sail) but also my real self. I've come to realize that, in all of my faults, I have failed to first look to myself and ask if I am the cause of the problem. In addition to that, I also thought about my standards; and have realized that they are too high.

I do not feel comfortable in saying that I always look at the whole situation; when I really just look to bits and pieces of it. And, ironically enough, I cannot say I look to things that I am unfamiliar with or am not comfortable in doing. I do not believe there has been a time where I stood up and said "I made a mistake;" merely because it is outside my comfort zone to. Nor do I believe I take into account the entire situation, just the parts in which makes me look innocent or better (a thing we Psychology students call Belief Perseverance).

But last night, I looked at the entire situation. As I thought about this I remembered a quote;


I want to start changing myself so I look to the bigger picture more often, and can say "Hey, I messed up" when I know I have. I want to, essentially, grow up and be someone whom most people like in real-life and on the internet. I want to dismiss my ego and come out as someone people can look to and say "he's a good guy."

So, here goes nothing...

Hey, I messed up.

I would like to apologize for my behavior in the past. While I did bring characters that varied in character (hah, pun) I did not consider the possibility of me offending others in the moments where my characters had their moments of rage or immaturity; such as the time where Neilar threatened to castrate someone if he did not call him "Nil." I would also like to apologize to the administration for the surge of drama I have made in response to me being banned; rather than say "Hey, I messed up." I tried to play victim. It's Ironic, considering that Nazz was correct for this situation only and, hell, probably the reason why I didn't like him was because he was right. I would also like to further my apology to administration themselves, especially Legion. I was being a little dick, and really there was no reason for my suspension to not take place considering I violated two of the (rather simple) rules here.

I would greatly appreciate a second chance in this community. I have, and will be, taking into account my flaws described and will be working on a personal level to resolve them. This is all a matter of me getting out of my comfort zone, which I shall be working to do.

Thank you and welcome back. We all have our shortcomings, I sure as hell know I do. Shit happens and instead of mulling on it we build a bridge and get the fuck over it. I got no grudges or anything my man. Happy to have you back onboard!

I'm glad to see you've owned up to your faults, Sail. It takes quite a bit for a man to stand up and admit that he was wrong. Even more so to admit his faults. Hopefully you'll be capable of fitting in better than you have been in this community. I genuinely wish you good luck. No one deserves to be excluded from rp, especially not after the own up to the things they've done wrong.